I went to my gynaecologist showed her the reports …she said I also noticed the same things your babby if given a birth will be dwarf so better go for abortion I was scattered, what are you saying doctor i won’t do that just because he/she would be different from others 😦 I have started talking with babby feeling the presence of babby I won’t and I left her hospital crying…..
I Started visiting hospitals and meeting all doctors so that atleast one can give me a hope and tell me don’t abort but invain😢.because I was crying the whole day my father and mother told me to stay back at home and now they started visiting hospitals and clinics.I use to call them every minute and ask them what did doctor say they use to tell me you don’t worry ,but listening to their voice I use to understand …….
But I was very clear in my mind I won’t abort my child, for me it was like killing 😔.
Just as my 7th month started i went to fernandes hospital and met a doctor…from 4 to 5 days I was dying to hear DO NOT ABORT YOUR CHILD and atlast i heared that I felt so relaxed but not happy the doctor told me we will scan and watever is babbys condition ,will not abort because it’s against ethics of our hospital we don’t kill.
I started accepting the fact that my babby will be dwarf and started preparing myself to be strong enough so that if required I can speak for my babby and stand for the rights of my babby. But I had to gather more courage💪 after the scan🙇 I had to be stronger or say strongest never ever in my wild dreams I thought this😲
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Life is a beautiful journey bound with little difficulties ,patience ,hardwork and loaded with excitment,fun, achievements.
My first pregnancy very happy 😊excited😀 nerous 😯 and scared,all mixed feelings experienced it first time…
I enjoyed the attention,care,don’t do this that etc etc… then started to enjoy movements of baby it was so lovely ☺ i really thought “yes it’s true every feeling can’t be described in words it’s just felt”.
Sometimes I dreamt of holding a babby, sometimes started to make a list of names(boys&girls), sometimes thought of doing shopping etc this is in 2010.
One day I went to hospital for a regular check up my doctor said though you are in last week of 6th month but your tummy looks big I think you should go for a scan immediately. I went to scan immediately and when my turn came for scan I went inside she started to see and then she called her students and started to show them my babby .I really got confused and I asked the scan doctor is everything fine she said go to your doctor i am giving you the reports. After waiting nervously for 10mins I got the report as I opened it….I was so shocked ,scattered,could not believe my eyes and I thought for a second why did the hell i studied genetics when i read THANATOPHORIC DWARFISM.😢😢😢
Feels sad ysr of marriage getting buzzy with kid or say pregnancies makes you forget the hardwork and money which parents put inn for getting you into your own favourite subject.the eagerness to do masters in geneticsand then passing with distiction made me felt great and now it’s just opposite feeling as I struggled for getting in blogging.
Having a MSc certificate in my hand from past 9 years and just being a simple housewife makes me feel happy and satisfied sometimes PEOPLE makes me loose myself coz I didn’t earn money .
Is it so important to earn MONEY ????